hello world and I’m back…

Woo hoo. Saying this yet again… I’m back. It’s funny because every time I say it, I haven’t been able to deliver. For the past couple of months, since I went offline, I hardly noticed I was, since I’ve been heavily intoxicated. Oh yeah… over the head kind with work. Okay, to be a bit more honest, that was for the first few months. And then after that, I just forgot.

I’ve been living the life of a true blue expatriate*. That’s right, you heard me. Expatriate.** (Ang shalala pakinggan, diba?) 😎 Anyway, irregardless of how we’re now called, I feel every inch of a worker – the long hours, the low pay (okay lower than the amount of work I put in), the bottom of the food chain ranking, the feeling-so-tired-that-I-just-want-to-stay-home-and-sleep-or-do-my-laundry-over-the-weekends feeling and generally the I-wanna-go-home feeling.

Anyway, I was mentioning I was back. Yes I am. And this time no promises (to myself, most specially). I’ll write when I have the time, and won’t when I don’t. I’ll still try the regular posts routine as much as I can. But for now I just have to accept the fact that, this cannot be my priority, although I still want it to be my outlet.

So as a starter, HELLO WORLD! How are you guys doing? What has everyone been upto? I’ve been trying to keep updated with people via ym/facebook/friendster/multiply/blogs, but again, my online time is quite limited. Holler!!!

* My friend called me a true blue OFW actually… just because I spend my weekends at home doing laundry…

** During one coffee session with my friends, we discussed how there was a statement where the OFWs (Overseas Filipino Workers) should be called Expats. OFWs are “workers” and more commonly classified with the blue collared working class. Since more and more white collared Pinoys are working overseas, the “worker” doesn’t seem apt, and it makes sense to use Expats.

nothing new

gasgas na sobra ang excuse na busy ako… so here’s the thing. i’ve really got nothing new to share. but maybe it’s because i’ve been too preoccupied with other things, such as… uhmm.. work? that i really haven’t thought of a decent blog post.

and then voila. it’s been almost three weeks since my last post. nyak! sayang binabayad sa hosting…. ay hindi pala ako nag babayad. mwehehehe. 😀

shout outs to everyone…. :wave: hope you guys are doing well. haven’t had much time to blog hop either. hope everything’s going along sweetly. 😀

transformed insomniac

Just to explain, I feel like I was either drunk, operating on a caffeine high, drugged, or just simply sleepwalking these past few days. Robot din daw. I haven’t been sleeping much. And I haven’t been doing much aside from working. And because my body clock has been a bit wonky from all the overtime-slash-stress-slash-pagod, it’s difficult to sleep *on time*. It’s already past 3am, and I’m still wide awake.

I went online, to find people to chat with and to tell me other bits of news, stories, information, chismis even. I didn’t want to share any more of my own sad news whenever I’m asked on my “what’s new”, (although it slipped out anyway), and did dig up some chikkas from willing storytellers.

But that was 2 or 3 hours ago. As I said it’s already 3am and most of my chatter friends have logged off already. I tried to get some shut eye, but couldn’t, so I went online again. Since my roomies are asleep, I’m in the balcony for some *all-on-my-own* time, with some knick knacks, chocolate milk and my laptop. I’ve just gone through almost all of my favorite reads, all my social networking sites, with some plus plus other blog sites I seemed to hop on to.

And I’m still up. Still very much awake, although my head hurts already. I hate being nocturnal especially when I *need* to be early the next day later.

Hmm… how do I get some good sleep? Am I doing something wrong?

A night with Duday

Last night, I went out with Kris and Ian. It was a weird but interesting drinking session. This is the first time I hanged out with Ian, although not the first time I met her. She’s the “best man” in Kris and Harv’s wedding. I talked about her a little bit when I blogged about the wedding. Duday is Ian’s screen name in ABS-CBN where she has a couple of acting stints as either a chimay or a contrabida in telenovelas. Cool job diba? She’s also a trainer and currently Kris’ officemate.

Anyway, she’s such a character. She has loads of stories to tell, about showbiz, people in showbiz, about work as a trainer, about her past love, and current life as a mom and wife. Oh, and here’s the clincher. To top it off, she also told stories about her as a fortune teller / psychic. Apparently, she can read auras, energies, and whatnots. It’s stronger when she’s drunk. (Isaac Mendez, less the painting, i-statue?)

Now my logical brain doesn’t believe her. (I told her that, and she says that she understands and almost nobody ever believes her at first anyway, including Kris). But that when she sees pictures in her head sooner or later it comes true. As an example, she predicted Kris and Harv breaking up, getting back together, getting married and having 2 boys. Now the two boys are hard to “predict”, right? And if that happens, maybe I could believe that she does have a gift.

But just to humor her, and myself, I let her read my energy. (I’m blogging about this, para if it comes true, I will remember hehehe). Here’s what she told me:

“You are not yet living your true self. You are living upto other people’s expectations. You tend to contradict yourself because you over-analyze. In fact, you are contradicting yourself right now. You already know your truth when you were a child, but a “maternal figure” told you that you are to make other people happy. This belief stuck, and as a result you tend to live for others and not yourself. You don’t show the real you because that contradicts with what others expect of you or see in you.”

At this point, I told her, I don’t know half of what she’s telling me. I don’t understand how to uncover my calling, and the real me. In fairness to her, I also told her, I can also believe that, but I don’t know what to do about it.

So she goes on to tell me that it’s because I analyze. I come from my head all the time. That’s why I’m always confused. (That makes sense).

I proceeded to ask her about my work. She said:

“Your work right now is not your calling; it’s just something that gets you by. Your calling has something to do with traveling and making a difference. It has nothing to do with what you are doing right now. When you realize what that is, people will contradict you, and say that it’s not going to work. This will cause conflict because you have a tendency to do what people tell you. But eventually you will do that thing that is your calling and you will succeed in it. It’s a noble calling.

(Sounds like a missionary job).

It’s not a missionary job, and it doesn’t seem to be teaching either. But it’s noble.

(So it’s outside Pinas? When do I leave Pinas?)

You will leave permanently by end of 2008. This will come after an epiphany. You will leave when it becomes your decision to leave and not someone else. You are doing it for you. Otherwise, something will always come up.”

She proceeded to hold my hand. And told me about a picture in her head.

“You’re inside a restaurant with a group of people. It’s a small restaurant, and there’s tuna pasta. You’re wearing a ponytail, and you’ve got long hair that’s dry. There’s a guy with blue eyes, wearing a blue shirt and with a crew cut hairstyle. This guy likes you. And you know it. There are also some other blonde people inside the restaurant/table with you.

You’re sharing a polaroid picture with the people around you. In the picture is you wearing some sort of a headrest. The headrest is yellow, red and white with beads. You’re also wearing a bracelet. You look very happy in the picture, as if you have just accomplished something important. There is a black bald kid next to you. You look your happiest in this polaroid.”

At this point it started getting eerie. Maybe because Ian looked so intent. She didn’t seem as if she was pulling my leg. And maybe because it was such a distinct picture that she was telling me.

“I seem to be getting a Romanoff or Romanio in my head. Also Anastasia.”

(Movie? Vodka? Russia?)

We ended up with that. We were to call it a night, till next time.

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My verdict? Well, maybe some part of this is true. Maybe I am bound to travel, search for my calling outside. Meet a guy who is into me, with blue eyes and a crew cut hairstyle. If that’s the case, I look forward to it. Who knows, the polaroid is true, and I’m happiest once I’ve lived it.

But in the meantime, I’ll choose to live in the now. My work may be a question mark, my love life non existent, and my purpose yet to be discovered. I’ll take the “live for myself” to heart though, because that I can control, although not understand yet. I intend to spend a few minutes of silence to meditate about it. And let’s see what comes up for me.

News! News! News!

Last minute September updates! 😀 I have loads.

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Last Saturday (September 29), one of my good friends gave birth to David Antonio Miguel D. Martinez. Naks the name, diba! So Español! I luv it! Hehehe! I haven’t met him yet, but his tita just sent me his pic. He’s so adorable! Can’t wait to meet him. 😀


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My good friend Kris is leaving mid Month to the US for a training in her new office. Why this is such big news to me? Well for a couple of reasons:

  1. Mawawalaan ako ng “dumping” ground for a month and a half;
  2. My “work” events seems to coincide with Kris’. And I’m actually seeing an “up” movement in my work as well;
  3. I need to be making decisions myself, and let change take its natural course.

Congrats dude! Good luck to us!

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During our EO3Q meeting this morning, our boss announced that our company has already reached and exceeded last year’s sales performance. A big hurrah to us. 😀 Pwede na kaya mag bakasyon for the last quarter? Wehehe! Ummm, I don’t think so…

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I don’t follow the UAAP saga ever since I graduated. Too bad for school spirit. But for some reason, news was all around me about this Season 70 of UAAP specifically about the La Salle-Ateneo rivalry. I started hearing about it when La Salle lost to Ateneo during the Sept. 9 games 2nd playoffs. Many of the Atenistas I met bragged about this win for a good week. It got more interesting when both teams made it to the final four, and were up against each other once again for the semis against UE (who is undefeated so far). La Salle was “twice to beat” with the first fight last Thursday. This basically means, if La Salle won, then they were up against UE. If Ateneo won, there would be another match to break the tie with La Salle.

During the Thursday fight, La Salle lost to Ateneo. A lot of chismax went on saying this was an “intended” loss, because the UAAP games (most esp. La Salle-Ateneo games) were a money making business. It made a whole lot of sense (not that I’m sulking that La Salle lost, as I mentioned, I didn’t really care much for the saga). Money making, because had La Salle won during that time, then there was no tie-breaker round. With the tie breaker round, Araneta Collisium made money, ticket sales made money, the major advertisers would be endorsed for another day, and of course, the drama is better. It also helps that Ateneo and La Salle are the most popular rivals since goodness knows when. And their alumnis were major sponsors to the events. I don’t know how true it is, but it made absolute sense for the players to be “bought” out so the money making guys, make more money.

Irregardless of, yesterday was the tie breaker. And after all the hoopla, La Salle will be fighting at the championship round against UE. Click on the image below for the blow-by-blow account of the explosive game.


I now look forward to rekindling my Green spirit. ANIMO LA SALLE! 😀

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I was supposed to be looking forward to a Singapore trip this October, but it got foiled. 😦 Blast my darn sister. (Joke lang!)

I’m thinking of where to go for a getaway. Hmm. What do you think? I’m thinking end of the month, para long weekend. (All Saint’s / Soul’s Day Holiday).

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Ang haba ng buhok ko. 😀